Nathan's shitty blog

I dont know if I will post often but here you go fucking world! There is no topic, just me posting whatever is on my mind. Add the feed to your feedreader (you better have one) so you can stay updated on the things on my mind.

• Second place
• Case against identity
• The project
• Fakism
• Fuck aba therapy
• Dogs against doge
• On the issue of wikipedia
• Dream log 1
• Overthinking

Second place

Here in the americas I keep hearing people shit on china for spying on its people. Indeed there are many reasons china does indeed suck for that but have you ever wondered who takes second place in spying on its own people? Its america lol. Fellow americans out there keep that in mind: every time you shit on china for spying on its own people you are saying that standing in the second most spied on country in the world and many of you are perfectly fine with it to! Its not ok for any country to spy on its people by any amount.

Things that watch you:

• The websites and apps you use watch you
• The webbrowsers you use to go to those websites spy on you and many apps secretly use those browsers under the hood to work
• Cloud servers spy on you
• All the most popular desktop and mobile OS's spy on you
• Your ISP
• Are phone calls and SMS messages are spied on
• The SIM cards in your phone track you
• Everywhere we go CCTV's are watching everyone
• A million more things...

Tech companies sells everyone tech that spies on them, they sell that information to the government to make more money, they sell that information to ad companies to make more money, they use the ad companies with the information to push out targetted ads to sell more tech that spies on people, the government uses that information to control its people while at the same time leveraging the countries economic power to export it across the world, the government than pays the tech companies to only show people what the government wants people to see along with people outside the country to spread the hands of the empire. This also ties into the military.
Its techno imperialism and america is the techno empire.

Distraction

Some of you think a golf player and diet coke drinker with orange hair is going to save the day. You type of people waste so much time shitting on lgbtq+, women, and other races that all the most powerful people in the world got a moment to continue with their plans of increasing their control over you while your eyes were on people who could never do something as terrible as the ruling class even if they tried. You listen to fox news trash on big media even though fox news is one of the big media companies and you somehow eat it all up. For years you fuckers complained about big money in politics than a musk rat came along and funded the diet coke golfer than the diet coke golfer just so happened to give the musk rat a very powerful government job aka he bought his way into government. And this musk rat just so happened to own multiple tech companies. See what I said about the data trade between government and tech companies? You hated it so very much when the demon rats were bought out by big tech but now its ok that your own mother fuckers are doing the same? Yes, I am aware one of this got through to you. Your just going to continue your crusade against wokeness whatever the fuck that even means while every last distant dream of freedom fades away and the entire time you will call this new found slavery freedom. "Freedom is Slavery" - Big brother.

Some who are better than to fall for the diet coke golfer's evil tricks for many years settled with a retirement home resident. "He is too dumb, weak, and old to do anything harmful" you say. Tell that to the many war leaders who got pleatiful pay checks from this old fuck. You know what they did with this money? They blew up children in other parts of the world. Some of you diet coke golfer supporters complain that the demon rats spend too much money on helping people in other countries, but I think your war like minds will enjoy the truth much more because let me tell you the demon rats are blowing arms and legs off children in those countries. They are raping their mothers to death all while the CIA works its magic destablizing the country. "War is peace" - Big Bother. All while that happens you fuckers arent willing to get off your asses and go to any protests or any of that. All you do is vote once every 4 years and cry yourself to sleep if your person doesnt win.

You cant see things dialectically. Instead to you everything is a disconnected detail. You cant see how online piracy, economic freedom for the working class, lgbtq+ rights, anti-racism, keeping the earth clean, disability rights... all interact. Its all or nothing. Dont give me the its ok the diet coke golfers do blah blah blah because they will defend blah blah blah, or the its ok the demon rats blah blah blah because they will do blah blah blah. They will say bullshit like "protect the children" or stop the flow of bad drugs like fent or stop terrorism from happening but NO. Even if they say its for safety dont fall for it. What matters is the freedom and well being of every good living being no matter their race, gender, sexual description, any disabilities they have... Every "safety" feature the government adds is designed to get in the way of that freedom and use safety as a way to cover up the fact they are enslaving us. "Ignorance is strength" - Big Bother.

Why I wrote this

I was listening to the radio and they were talking about a statistic. The statistic compared americans reaction to bad things countries like russia did compared to bad things america did. The statistic found that americans react more to bad things countries like russia did compared to things american did that are similar. Being the way radio is they didnt go into it anymore and sidetracked away. The fight for freedom should be a movement that spans borders, a movement that is not bound to grandfalloon limits. No more letting the bad things china or russia does overcome your power to see your own country is quite likely doing the same. No more letting powerful people make you believe that people with no power are bigger threats than the powerful people. No more believing things the government says is for your safety is actually for your safety though at the same time dont let big companies tell you stuff like food laws are one of these fake safety features, those companies are just butt heart some amount of protection from legal posioning exists though thats a topic for another time.

Helpful articles

These arent going to be perfect unbias articles. None are including mine.

• The world's most surveilled citizens
• Technological slavery

Case against identity

The modern day world is quite identity focused I would say. Identity is something I both eat up and puke out, something I have my own version of but in a way always go back to yet keep my distance from. It is yet another word that been cleaned of any meaning yet used in many more ways every day. Over all I see identity not as something not to be celecrated, I see it as something to be abolished.

The anti-individualism of identity

Identity doesnt bring about individual freedom and expression: quite the opposite, it puts us into grandfalloons and many times it is even controlled by factors outside our own will even though its socially constructed from the core. Hell no I say to it all. Get those grandfalloon self image cripling social constructs out of my face! If you ever gotten really fucking high you would know social identity does not follow you into the void. You instead start seeing yourself and thinking like a real individual. The logical and emolutional nuances of your geist makes themsevles clear as rest of the world fades out, every bias you have shows itself as a bias instead of an unarguable fact of nature. A similar thing happens during rem stages of sleep, no matter who you are and where you are in a dream those details carved into your brain in a strange twisted way tells you that you arent the person you think you are. Things that happened in the outside world seem not only to have shaped you but tortured you as well, distanced you from your own geist to instead put you in a social label: a mask you no longer know if its a mask or a part of your face; under it is just flesh no skin and that reality scares social comformists.

Descriptions instead of identities

I dont identity as bisexual, I describe myself as bisexual. I dont identity with socialism, I describe my polical ideology as aligned with it. In the past I have gone ahead and made things my entire identity and it only leads to less freedom and more suffering. Identity makes sure I pick a option and defend it no matter how wrong instead of engaging in the search of truth. Knowing this the identities people try to push on me causes pain though I dont see those people worth my time anyways. You may say you are blue but that doesnt mean your entire identity depends on it, instead it can remain a simple fact about yourself and leave your geist free to travel as it pleases.

Identity and capitalism

Under capitalism your entire existance as a proletariat orbits around capitalist production. Your job is not just something that needs to get done or something you do to make a living. Under capitalism your not a good worker unless you make it your identity. From a young age everyone is pushed in this direction, always asked "what do you want to be when you grow up?". Always told to go to college to became a professional in one field and do only that to the day you retire or die whatever comes first. Does it matter if you even like it to start with not alone the entire time? Capitalism sure couldnt give a fuck, they want the "you gotta do what you gotta do mindset" drilled into your head. Capitalism fucking hates jack of all trades, they want someone who has an entire college degree to push a button and cant do anything else. Talk about systematic crimination against ADHD lol. To top things off they make it so peoples entire self worth is centered around their job they picked got forced into.

The project

A long time ago a few people started a mass project, one with no end. This project spans life times and demands everyone born is forced into it at birth and they dedicate every cell of their body, every living breathing second, everything about them into this mass project. Everyone is raised at birth to be unable of even understanding the concept that a world without the project can exist, to them the existance of the project is as natural as the trees and dirt and has always been in existance.

When even the slightest question hinting towards to even reveling the existance of the project is raised it sounds alarms for most. Facts are no longer facts but just simple easy to eat enforcements of the project, infact facts are kind of stupido: they state something without even going to detail about the hows or whys. "cold hard facts" you mean static unquestioned comfort statements? Questions toward the project that dont sound alarms seem to not apply to the project, instead they only apply to things that get in the way of the project.

Barely anyone can imagine the end of the world as blissful or peaceful. To most the destruction of a bloody society that causes most its issues yet pretends it never did those things and does a half assed job fixing it is a sad thing. Masses show up to the death of a mass murderer to cry, a mass murderer who won a peace prize.

What is even more alarming and outside the range of thought for most than pointing out the existance of the project or even taking it down is the concept that better projects can take its place. The idea that not only our very understanding of facts and logic are twisted by a mass project but that new ways of understanding can replace it.

Fakism

Imagine a fake american. There are american flags everywhere, pictures of the founding fathers everywhere, american themed everything. But it lacks many of the things that made american what it is: everything is controlled by a unelected president who serves for life, everything is owned by the president's small group of all powerful and controlling friends and the people of american have to rent everything from them... Hanging up any flag that isnt an american flag is illegal, and pointing out that it isnt real america is illegal. No democracy or freedom of speech. Its just a dictatorship painted in red, white, and blue. It isnt anti-americans being locked up, they seem to quite like the idea of a fake american. Its the americans who want real america back who are being locked up.

Now imagine what I said in the context of the USSR. Socialist things everywhere without a shred of any prove of socialism, a unelected dictator who serves for life, the people who have zero control over their housing and workplace... If you havent read any Karl Marx your likely lost right now: Karl Marx wrote about taking down dictatorships, giving the working class more control over their own workspaces and lifes, continuing where the founding fathers stopped by expanding democracy into more parts of life... If you actually look into it you will find many of the people in the USSR being locked up were themselves strong supporters of socialism, socialists who realized the USSR was a dictatorship with a socialist veneer. Sound a lot like the fake america example I gave doesnt it?

Fake america is unfolding right now. Its a movement the upper class started many years ago. They were butt hurt when they were told they cant have slaves anymore, they were butt hurt when unions told them they need to treat their workers what they are worth, they were butt hurt when they were told women can work real jobs. Through funding political parties and turing lots of tiny companies into a few big ones they have been very very busy working to undo are tiny wins. As of writing this we are at the point in history where their puzzle is finally coming together. The plan is unfolding the way they planned. Fake america doesnt try to destroy the red, white, and blue or the flag. Instead it hangs it up right above the throne to fool people. They plant fake signs to throw you off course, to stop you from following the path. Dont trust the signs!

Fuck aba therapy

Lets get all the soft words out of the way: aba therapy is the use of psychological and sometimes even physical torture to train kids with autism and other conditions to act more like normal people. It does not care about acceptance, does not even try to help them develop and learn in any meaningful way, is blind to any advanged autistic people might have in some areas and doesnt even try to use those advances. All aba therapy does is get a monster out of a cave and beat it until it lost all its geist, put it in a suit and tie, than throw it into a office to pencil push rest of its life. It doesnt even stop for a microsecond to wonder if the monster has any feelings, if its physically capable of things humans arent...

Are society doesnt want people who think differently, are undistracted by much of the social bullshit that completely takes over the minds of many, are much more sensitive and intune to the world around them... for heaven fucking shake why is not putting up with fucking loud sounds a bad thing? Do normal people even have ears?! Go and read the countless online articles about noise pollution. Noise pollution causes earing loss, stress, sleep issues, heart attacks, environmental damage, increased risk of avoidable accidents... and not putting up with it is a disorder? and kids who dont put up with it should be psychologically tortured until they show zero resitance to all the things I listed?

A lot of it connects to capitalism. The capitalists want workers who will mindlessly do whatever they are told, not workers who ask questions. The capitalists want workers who will put up with stressful and dangerous work spaces, not ones who demand it gets fixed even if it cuts into profits.

Some alternates to aba therapy (there are things here for adults to, children arent the only ones with autism):

• Spending time on hobbies and interests that you actually care about
• Filling the mind with well made works of fiction and history
• Art and music
• Study science and philosophy
• Safe and responsible use of psyadelic drugs
• Spending time going on hikes, biking, and doing fun things outdoors
• Pets and animals

Dogs against doge

On this website I have said before that as a nonhuman (I am a nonhuman believe it or not) my power to engage in revolution is lower than all you humans and my words and actions are less meaningful due to my isolation as a nonhuman. But like I said before I am still caught up in your problems reguardless and when shit hits the fan I will still be there doing what little I can. Today that happened. I went to a protest: a protest against doge. For a moment my nonhumanism impacted me less than it normally does. I realized this when I saw a dog with a sign on it. That sign said "dogs against doge". Even the dogs and nonhumans were protesting. It may not have been the dog revolution or the nonhuman revolution but it was still a revolution against a form of evil. And that is something dogs, cats, aliens, big foot, whatever the fuck I am... can fight for no matter how little are existing does anything in the bigger picture.

The revolution will not be televised on social media!

On the issue of wikipedia

Why do I write this?

Wikipedia is one of those things a lot of people like to shit on without really thinking deep about the sytem as a whole. People tend to look for yes or no answers than they should instead be trying to understand things on a dialectical level so they can understand the why instead of just the what. Teachers dont understand how the articles are actually editted, edge lords like to shit on it without actually knowing the issues with wikipedia, youtubers like to push out content shitting on wikipedia without ever going into the actual details why wikipedia is bad... Before you start shitting your pants I am not defending wikipedia by any means, quite the opposite actually. I am just here to tell you like most things in life its bad but not for the reasons you think.

Its editted by random people on the internet

And academic books are written by a few people in fancy buildings, documentaries are made by a bunch of nerds with cameras, research papers are written by old dudes in lab coats... With all of those there are systems in place to make sure its reliable and yes, wikipedia does have a system in place its just different than what other sources use. Thats what makes those different from fucking reddit. All of those can be equally shitty if you just eat up whatever is given to you instead of questing where it came from. One thing all of those systems cant stop (thats if they even try) is bias.

On bias

No where is without bias. No matter how much they try to get rid of it its still there. Its often more than just a different way of looking at things, it can be full on poising to the brain and flat out demand you close off your mind. That is why religion is dogshit. Thats why you gotta be strong and not let that shit in. A little god and jesus than as soon as you know it being gay is a sin, women are objects, the church controls you... a few good opinions and sources of information aint going to save you, building up a philosophy and lens to view the world from can be just as much as a tool to free the mind as it is a weapon to be misused by shitty things like religion. As much as reading helps its a journy you can only take alone.

Wikipedia's bias is not limited to just republican or democrat. Its not communist or fascist either. It embodies the will of both republicans and democrats, only aims to defend the status quo, and prefers to echo the words of those with money and power. Wikipedia's bias is: neoliberal. Its humanitarian enough to not appear as an opinion held by asses but at the same time isnt willing to hold people in power accountable. Anything bad america does is covered up and pushed deep into parts of the articles barely anyone reads, anything bad enemies of america does is made much easier to find. The most dangerous type of bias is bias that pretends its not bias. Once something makes you believe its nonbias it can start making you believe everything it says is the unquestable truth and slowly lock up your mind. Yes, even I am bias.

Those who never speak are never wrong

Lets get this out of the way, wikipedia may not be deep and analytical but it tends to be very dense. Schools dont like that because they dont want their students to gain new information: they want their students to to quote fancy sounding quotes from people that went to colleges that most cant afford. The ideal source is something that is dialectical, analytical, and dense. Wikipedia is just dense. And the sources schools want us to use is none of those!

The more you say the more incorrect things you will say even with a constant error rate, the more you say the more you need to fact check which could get overwhelming increasing the error rate. How do academics get around this? By stuffing their articles with word porn to make it as un-dense as possible so they can say barely anything while keeping their word count up. That is a terrible way to do things. Its better to openly define a way of going about understanding the world so everything can be connected and tied together while giving the reader the authority to analyze your words instead of eating it up. When you speak you have to risk being wrong and if you cant learn to accept that and continue learning new things than its better to not speak at all. Wikipedia still only goes half way, enough to scare away schools not but enough for some topics.

Replacing wikipedia

Wikipedia for the most part is usable not going to lie. Today I was using it to look up information on anime. I even link to wikipedia on my website sometimes. I am careful about what articles I link though, not all wikipedia articles are equal. A good wikipedia replacement does not exist. They all have the same issues: everyone is too focused on making a nonbias source when they should be openly announcing their bias and writing more analytical.

Get yourself a library card! While wikipedia will cover you for quick questions your base of knowledge should be built by reading books. Not everything can be summarized and quoted. A good book is one that takes its time to buildup information while still being dense enough. A book will tell you a complete story instead of just data points. A good book opens your mind by showing new ways information can connect. Wikipedia, news articles... only ever serve to give you disconnected data points: aka tell what to believe not how to believe.

Dream log 1

Last night I had the type of dream that inspires new stories. In my dream the favorite author: Kurt Vonnegut, was a unix and emacs user. And he wrote a book about someone in some government position or something along those lines who spent there entire life fucking around with unix and there favorite editor was emacs. He made countless, guides, journy entries, random life stories.. and had everything on his system optmized using scripts to do many different tasks. The whole world ended and the last person on earth was someone who knew pretty much nothing about computers and they found this unix system in the place they picked as there hideout. Through all the things left behind on the unix system the last person on earth learned to not only survive but live well as the last person. They even became a unix power user through the guides left behind.

Overthinking

Whenver I decide to add something to this website I always overthink on how to add the thing. In general I just overthink how I will do everything. It slows me down. Right now I am overthinking trying to think what to write and how to format it. I always end up doing way less when what I planned on doing. My partner overthinks a lot to. We overthink together. Though we overthink in different ways. I always end up going fuck this and throwing together a terrible mess while he just ends up giving up from the start.

Overthinking is just as much of a power as it is a curse. It fuels my ideas and thought process just as much as it slows me down. Its a quite difficult weapon to use but still quite deadly indeed.

Next time you overthink do what I do: eat junk food.